Surgery Tomorrow

So I finally am getting my port a cath out. Its been in 7 years and has been used weekly for years and lately every three weeks for my Herceptin. I had it put in right before my first treatment in Dec 2001.

A lot has happened in those 7 years, marriage broke up, moved to a new city and a new way of life, fell in love, got remarried, a few cancer is back scares, a few health scares for my family and lots of ups and downs.

My one constant through all of this is my son. He amazes me everyday. Despite his developmental delays and dyspraxis, his sensory integration and interpersonal issues, he is a happy, healthy and adorable kid. He is so smart. He brings home mostly A's. He works so hard and always tries his best.He is empathetic, sweet and a good kid, who wears his heart on his sleeve. I am so proud of him.

This year I got to see so many changes in him. First off he is close to 60 inches!!!! He more organized, does his work independently, has really been telling funny stories and eats more. He plays water polo and loves being goalie and we have watched him learn to swim. Its so amazing to see him in the pool. he really has a confidence and has found his niche. He was interviewed for our local news on Saturday. I never knew I could love a person this much. I am such a lucky mom and proud of him.

So tomorrow I have to go under general anesthesia am not too happy about this. It makes me sick. A few months ago, I dreamed I died due to my port. Then last night, my grandparents and a few other deceased relatives came to me in a dream. They told me they were waiting for me. So I am a complete crazy anxious mess over this surgery. I am lucky to have such a great hubby who loves me and is putting up with me.

Life's been crazy this week, a problem with a teacher, My mom and I both fell and hurt our right foots and left knees, hubby's job has been a mess. I feel like there is a black cloud and now the surgery.

I have the best friends and family and they have been there for me all the time. I am glad they will be praying for good results tomorrow.

I am just so freaked out right now.